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uncertainty
Sep. 12th, 2025 12:47 pmi just feel like letting this out. whatever it is that's gonna happen to me, i will say alhamdulillah. i don't know if i genuinely deserve it, but god.... it will be scary. the uncertainty is scary.
it certainly feels funny, how it took me blood, sweat and tears to actually get this, and when i do. it feels like i'm doing everything in my will to lose it.
like, if all else fails, and my mom has to bear the consequence..... i dont know if i will ever forgive myself for it.
it certainly feels funny, how it took me blood, sweat and tears to actually get this, and when i do. it feels like i'm doing everything in my will to lose it.
like, if all else fails, and my mom has to bear the consequence..... i dont know if i will ever forgive myself for it.
